Sunday, January 14, 2007


motivation. discipline.
these two words are the most important words right now.
i need the motivation to make myself start studying like how i used to.
i need the discipline to make myself concentrate on my studies.
however i find it rather hard to fulfill them.

no one can actually force me to sit down and study.
only i can force myself to do that.
but myself still don't wanna do that.
so i have to keep telling myself to do that or i will end up being a loser.
and that is when myself starts to think.
maybe i is right.
okay whatever, the point is i need to study. that's all.

my end of semester examination is in three damn weeks and:
i still got no fucking idea what analog electronics is trying to say.
i still got no fucking idea how to connect circuits and make a reading.
i still got no fucking idea why i am so lazy this semester.
and thus, i am at the bottom of the class.
and this had never happened to me in my entire eighteen years of living.
and this sucks. i have to start being serious.

everytime i think of all these, i start thinking of changing course/school.
but it will definitely be a waste of time and money.
so whatever happens, i have to stick to electrical engineering for another two more years.
two years is actually a long time considering i hate the course.
so to make two years seem a little short, i listened to bloc party's song entitled Two Years everytime i feel like giving up.
those people who have this problem should go try listening to that song.
it helps. trust me. really.
if you don't have it, just ask me for it over at msn. i'll send.

and oh, gango mango will be meeting together once a month from now.
just to spend fridays together and have fun welcoming the weekends.
the previous one was last two days.
it was dinner at The Mind Cafe somewhere near nafa.
we played boardgames there and created necessary noises.
it was fun. just like the old times eh? hahaha.

oh what date is it three days from now?
seventeen! hahaha. seventeen turns twenty.
time flies past you as if you're speeing in a ferrari on malaysian highway.
and my brother is already serving the nation right now at tekong.
heard they have the best facilities in the world. their swimming pool is the biggest cos it covers the whole island. their food is of high standard. their beds are so comfortable. the toilets are sparkling clean. and on top of that, they issue you a machine gun each! isn't that awesome or what? haha.

okay bye.
i love my stargirl.

17:05